Progressive Uncertainty

Because I suck at this whole 'writing about my life casually' thing, I wanted to do bullet points about high and low points for me personally at the moment. But then I realized that there's something somewhat troubling me in an unnerving sort of way. The reason for that is because I just up and stopped some meds back in late November. Not quite sure why, it started as I forgot them one day and then I toyed with the idea of 'what if I went off of them' the next day, which was not the smartest plan. Most of them were psych meds for anxiety or depression. However, one was an anti-convulsant, the medications that prevent seizures. the biggest change since coming off of them was that my hands stopped shaking entirely. They used to always shake and I could never hold them still. It's amazing to me that I can hold them completely still now. A few other things have happened since I came off the meds: I have a slightly bigger appetite, I am slightly more irritable, and my anxiety, surprisingly, has been much easier to manage. So much easier. I have tried weaning off my epilepsy meds before in November of 2011, and three weeks later in December I seized in the shower. That was my second to last seizure, the last being in November 2013 somewhere around the 16th-18th. That time was a breakthrough seizure, meaning I had been on meds to prevent seizures and one "broke through". I took a short break from dA after I had it: nichrysalis.deviantart.com/jou…

So, there's progress from coming off of the pills, but there's still a huge uncertainty as to whether the seizures have receded and subsided (for those unaware, epilepsy is not necessarily a lifelong condition).