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Bitlets 326

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I found my prostate in a field
when I was only six years old,
prairie grass and Illinois wheat
bowed down by breath, bound
by the root to a foundation
softened by Illinois clay
and Midwestern winds.

I am a curious boy, fascinated
by feelings; I just wanted to know
what was out there that was for me.

I am a similar creature now
comfortable in a masculinity
stretched over my skin,
fueled by a feminine acuity
for empathy aching in every vein.

Emotional androgyny means
I know what is out there for me
to take before I can give it back.
Written 6/1/2015

Part of the Bitlets project.

About this Bitlet

this started out as an experience told tongue-in-cheek about my six-year-old self being a child, but it evolved into something more. I've always known I act and even talk femininely, but to me, I'm a man through and through and I've never doubted that. My way of acting has never been criticized, but people have pointed it out, and when living in the country, it's mostly pointed out to poke fun at stereotypes and gender roles, it's never been hurtful. It's hardly been commented on in cities and suburbs. I may just be lucky to have not been confronted by such people, but it's empowering; I think the reason I haven't been met with such criticism is because I can play both fields, at least emotionally. I've never had trouble connecting with people because of gender, I just am able to empathize regardless, and I've always been proud of this.

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Bitlets 326 © 2015 Nic Swaner
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Mrs-Freestar-Bul's avatar
Such a beautiful poem, brought some memories :)