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In my sophomore year of a high school
run-down from too much renovation
a running joke of mine became
a joking bet:
I bet I can beat Toby in a race, easy!
With a head full of sophomoral morale
and softened male ego,
Toby finally agreed to race me.
He was the fastest and most finesse in class and I was
the fat kid always last to the finish.
We set up our start line, agreed on a finish,
waited for a kid counting down to call go
but my mind had already gone.
There were no stakes to this race,
it was mutual fun between tortoise and hare,
but my mind had already decided
that I wanted to win, so I was going to.
In my older and more venerable yearning
I never failed to forget what happened
even without understanding why
because I have yet to achieve
such a state of serenity since
and now when
I am trying to make sense
of why being present doesn’t content me
I yearn for that race,
matching my fastest peer stride
for strife, side by
side
using nothing but focus
and a mental death grip on my goal.
I yearn to become so absorbed by the moment
every muscle I can muster
is mastered,
every thought that can be thunder
is silenced.
I tied Toby, but
I’m still racing him.
run-down from too much renovation
a running joke of mine became
a joking bet:
I bet I can beat Toby in a race, easy!
With a head full of sophomoral morale
and softened male ego,
Toby finally agreed to race me.
He was the fastest and most finesse in class and I was
the fat kid always last to the finish.
We set up our start line, agreed on a finish,
waited for a kid counting down to call go
but my mind had already gone.
There were no stakes to this race,
it was mutual fun between tortoise and hare,
but my mind had already decided
that I wanted to win, so I was going to.
In my older and more venerable yearning
I never failed to forget what happened
even without understanding why
because I have yet to achieve
such a state of serenity since
and now when
I am trying to make sense
of why being present doesn’t content me
I yearn for that race,
matching my fastest peer stride
for strife, side by
side
using nothing but focus
and a mental death grip on my goal.
I yearn to become so absorbed by the moment
every muscle I can muster
is mastered,
every thought that can be thunder
is silenced.
I tied Toby, but
I’m still racing him.
Literature
Awake
Awake
We - are the children of Cygnus
Sagittarius , the Pleiades, Orion, and the Dog Star
Sprung from the womb of the Hypernova
Recycled, Reborn, Eternal
Observe
Times arrow returned to its quiver
Unlimited
Alive - in every moment that has been
or will ever be
Free
From the shackles of the linear mind
and the material wastelands of the Fallen
Pity the mortal and the blind
We dine on starlight
and dance to the rhythm of the fractal void
The heavy metal, rock and roll beat of the Magnetar and Star Quakes
The techo-jazz, thump thump thump of the pulsars
The waltz of the binaries
in their elegant embrace
We ride the big surf of the Broa
Literature
Endless
Memories so visceral
I can still taste them,
like the salty sweet wash of your skin
after a slow morning run
in the dancing summer rain.
Eyes a shade of amber,
golden flakes glowing in the warmth
of a crackling fire,
your lips parted like an envelope
I'm aching to seal.
Words whispered silently,
a tender glance exchanged,
an undulation of emotion,
a burst of color and a blast of light,
two lone figures unite.
Hands in the dirt,
knees in the slushing mud,
battle weary and fatigued,
I trudge step by step
toward the peak of this moment,
a banner raised,
emblazoned with your name.
For I'd rather die on the hill,
swathed in the regalia of my d
Literature
Trying to Clear My Mind
Invisible until,
a smile seen through a window.
A bright light ensnaring a moth.
Handsome, quiet mystery.
Many reasons to walk away,
but... a puzzle and I reluctantly,
obsessed. Trying to turn away,
but piqued by music, art, creativity!
Just let it go, let it go,
why can't I let it go. Filled with curiosity.
The best way out is through.
Must unravel the mystery.
Would he meet for coffee,
a phone call,
a text?
c2018 SAH
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I have always liked to run, specifically sprints, but then I started gaining massive amounts of weight in my sophomore year of high school and dealt with it with humor. Then one day my running joke (quite literally) was called out, and I found myself lining up to race one of the fastest kids in my grade. I put myself under an intense amount of pressure lining up. This was all done for fun, but I think my own self-awareness about my weight gain was too much for my own anxiety at the time. Lining up to race him, I snapped inside my head, having racing thoughts (pun seriously not intended), doubts and an extreme wave of depression and lack of self-worth. All of a sudden this joke I had been making had value and impact, and I had clarity. I was going to make this race have value and I was going to win, and that was all that mattered. I tied him, but I think that result speaks for itself pretty loudly.
I've never really attained a mind state since like the one I experienced that day, though I have come very close in intense BDSM sessions with my girlfriend. But it was so extremely gratifying to feel every muscle tendon in my body, know what it was capable of, feel time drop away, and perceive everything sharper than ever before, executing everything I wanted to do to perfection. It was absolutely incredible and euphoric to be a part of that moment and I've always wanted to achieve that state of serenity again.
Toby is not his real name, most likely cause I forget what this guy's name even was after all these years.
I have always liked to run, specifically sprints, but then I started gaining massive amounts of weight in my sophomore year of high school and dealt with it with humor. Then one day my running joke (quite literally) was called out, and I found myself lining up to race one of the fastest kids in my grade. I put myself under an intense amount of pressure lining up. This was all done for fun, but I think my own self-awareness about my weight gain was too much for my own anxiety at the time. Lining up to race him, I snapped inside my head, having racing thoughts (pun seriously not intended), doubts and an extreme wave of depression and lack of self-worth. All of a sudden this joke I had been making had value and impact, and I had clarity. I was going to make this race have value and I was going to win, and that was all that mattered. I tied him, but I think that result speaks for itself pretty loudly.
I've never really attained a mind state since like the one I experienced that day, though I have come very close in intense BDSM sessions with my girlfriend. But it was so extremely gratifying to feel every muscle tendon in my body, know what it was capable of, feel time drop away, and perceive everything sharper than ever before, executing everything I wanted to do to perfection. It was absolutely incredible and euphoric to be a part of that moment and I've always wanted to achieve that state of serenity again.
Toby is not his real name, most likely cause I forget what this guy's name even was after all these years.
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Oooh, little chills Nic! I literally got little chills! Well done.