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Nic Swaner
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United States
Artist's Statement 10/25/2011

Nic Swaner is a studying graphic designer, and a budding young writer whose concepts and syntax require a rush of blood and breath to the lungs. For inspiration he need not look far from the cyclopean sun, feel the displacement before the epilepsy, synthesize some synesthesia, or recall the origami folds his hands have memorized throughout the years.

Nic is almost entirely self-taught in the ways of writing and in doing so has created a style all his own. His medium is mainly through poetry, short stories and articles for websites; he excels in portraying his thoughts and ideas in a world of complex and harmonious verbiage. He is always whittling away at several works of writing that will be submitted to free publishers or magazines. Nic will always be happy to edit and critique your writing, whether it's poetry or prose. Contact him at

Nic is currently studying graphic design and the fundamentals of art. He has always emphasized the power of concept over complexity, and have maximized color and composition to their utmost potential. He prefers to work with photomanipulations and typography to portray his concepts. He is always open to critique from his peers. Other artistic endeavors from Nic include folding origami, film photography, darkroom artwork such as photograms, and music production.


Nic lives in Chicago, Illinois, but his hometown is Robinson, Illinois. He likes Progressive Rock and Underground Rap music. Marcus J. Ranum is his most adored photographer. Samurai Jack is his favorite cartoon character along with Ed, Edd, and Eddy. His favorite ice cream flavor is French Vanilla. He has a mild form of sound to color synesthesia for melodies and believes the song Echoes by Pink Floyd is green.

"The world is only as old as the person to whom you speak." - Nic Swaner

I've written about this song before, it's a song I've praised so many times I've lost count and it's saved me from going deeper into guilt, depression, shame and anxiety, even more than that. It's about the hopelessness of being in depression and other people seeing hope for you. There's something about that concept, that every time, snaps me out of it, and lets me reach out to others and let them know if I'm feeling down, even if it's not serious sadness, it helps. Today, on lunch at work I was conversing as I often do when a coworker said something very Southern and very subtly edgy, and it was something that reminded me of JakesException. Jake was a brilliant poet I had the great fortune of meeting here on dA during my second month of being a Lit Volunteer. Jake frequently challenged others' modes of thought and made you think and question everything. He did this all the time, without prejudice, and one day when I was feeling especially vulnerable, he challenged me and I got defensive to the point that I alerted the community relations director that I was blocking him (the lovely wonderwoman, Moonbeam13) who reminded me that if I felt if I wasn't even slightly up for the responsibilities of a CV, I should consider stepping down, an option I appreciate (now, because of hindsight) for having been reminded of. I pushed on, because I've never consider myself a quitter, just lazy. I never was the backbone of the lit crew, more the immature pituitary gland: happy, growing, empathetic, just finding himself and kinda dumb.

Jake committed suicide in May of 2014. He was younger than when I first met him. I miss him, I miss his challenging my thinking to find other modes of thought (seriously, who else does that, even?) and as much as I've talked about Jake and his poetry through journals and to others to try to explain how much he meant to me I'm not sure I ever gave myself time to grieve. I retreated into my headphones at work and spent the rest of my time, writing him a bitlet. On and off today I went between holding back thinking about him and enjoying my job and thinking about him.

Bitlets 411 - 8/3/2015

I miss you Jake, but I know
that's how you wanted it to be,
me six feet up,
six feet

I missed the anniversary
of your death, and as fucked up
as being fucked up goes,

I'm not at peace with myself for that
and I know I have your eternity
and my lifetime to make up for
a soured first friendship;
our second is stronger.

So here's some advice
I know you won't follow:

be fearless.

In a strange way, I turned to porn to cope. I tend to be into more intense methods of sex, to put it lightly, and one of those methods involves having total control. I felt so out of control with my emotions and thinking when I got home, I had decided it was something I was gonna try. And to be fair, sexual release of tension is still release of tension. Then WeirdAndLovely called my phone and left cute voicemails like she does (how am I ever supposed to have a clean voicemail box when there are 8 voicemails that are all the cutest thing ever?) and she quickly heard from me how I was feeling, and pretty relentlessly, made me smile as much as she could over the distance. She cheered me up, explained her family history to me, and I did the same for her. I told her my family stories when she got sleepy.

I told her the story about my great-grandfather signing up for the Marines when he was 16 in 1945 and before he was shipped to North Carolina for basic, his girlfriend came to him in tears and bruises. Her father was a happy, jolly man, but when he drank he became angry and he became irritated by the slightest thing, and he liked to drink. This story has only survived by those who heard what happened passing down the tale, but as the story goes, he went to her family's house, and shortly after her family had gone to a neighbor's nearby. Some shouting was heard. But somehow, my great-grandmother's father fell out of a second-story window and my great grandfather helped him back up and care for his injuries. Her father never drank again, her father never hit anyone again. This is the man who has opened his home to me until I can manage paying for my own way of living. He protects family, even from family. I love him and I look up to him.

He got shipped to North Carolina and my great-grandmother and him married out there as he stayed in training after the war. Somewhere there on a small dock on a beach, they took a photo, and if you look at this wedding photo, it looks like a photo that should be iconic. When you look at this photo, you will see a young woman, vibrantly in love with a man who is there supporting her physically and emotionally and protectively and you'll see a man holding the woman he loves, happy to hold her so she can be in such a tender and sweet pose. This wedding photo has been imitated 2-3 times in two generations of family after, but it has never been duplicated. Many girls think of a future wedding day, some think if they even want a wedding day, and some even plan them before the partner(s). And I think all I would be happy with is someone who will let me take my photo of me supporting them. I am lucky enough to have those people around me.

By then, I realized I had helped WeirdAndLovely close her eyes and get to sleep and so I'm here now, writing this journal, and I couldn't be happier.

P.S. SadisticIceCream, this is the story of the wedding photo I hinted to in a poll a long time ago I think you were interested in.

Journal History


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KawaiiKarcia Featured By Owner 7 hours ago  Hobbyist Artist
Thank you for the :+fav:  :glomp:
anapests-and-ink Featured By Owner 18 hours ago  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much for the fav!  It means a lot.
Ravensaura Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Student Photographer
Thank you for the favourite, much appreciated! :love:
(Not) Parallel by Ravensaura
EstherLR Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so so much for adding my work to your collection! :tighthug:
CalleighBlack Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you very much for collecting Elemental. :)
BlackBowfin Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Hey there, Nic.  Thank you much for the read and fave. :)
Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Carmalain7 Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2015
Hey Nic,

Thank you, good sir, for the favorite on Carrion Tallow.

I know it's not an easy piece of reading, so for you to go out of your way to let me know that it connected with you, it means a lot.

Always a humbling experience when I get a favorite from someone so talented and involved in the community as you, my man.
Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Welcome, man.
SolidMars Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Wave by chil96
Thank you kindly for the watch 
Mr. awesome person :giggle:. Have a great day :heart:
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